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A lil' bit moody now. Too many rumors.  Too many bad things about me. Too many hypocrites. TOO MANY OF THOSE THINGS!! I am so sick of it already.  Trying so hard to ignore and leave those sad things behind. Why? WHYYY? Why must you dig those things out? It's already buried in the bottom of my memories. They're almost gone. It did not appear for quite a long time. Today. You. Make. Everything. Started. Again. You kept repeating how I treated you badly. Yes, I do. But why are you telling those to everyone and making my friends stay away from me? You're mean. You always act like those innocent victim. But what about me? Please think and consider the consequences before you talk k?  Mine your own business lah. Who cares? Getting so annoyed for exam already. Why can't you just leave me alone? I just don't understand, why must you forcing us back just like how we used to be? Everything is over. No point of men...

It was my hatchday :) On Friday, we had our mechanics paper. I was extremely nervous for it because it was one of the paper that I scared the most.  Of course, it wasn't easy at all. For some of my classmates, mechanics are just no biggie because they're too smart :/ I wish I could own a brain like theirs :( After mechanics paper, Mr Tony gathered us at the agora to bring us for lunch. It was his last day of teaching us, so he decided to treat us lunch before he leaves. I felt guilty somehow. I used to complain to my friends about him. Actually, to be honest, he is not a very experienced lecturer, but he's a very good partner to talk to. I remembered back early of this year, we used to chat in Facebook and he always asked me not to feel stress and always encourage me when I felt discouraged. He even bought a secret recipe cake for me :O Feeling so blessed to have them singing birthday song for me although some of them didn't really realise t...

Tomorrow. 15th October 2013. Tomorrow will be one of the important day among my education stages. It is my A levels AS exam. I am absolutely anxious for what is going to happen tomorrow. Trying so hard to calm myself down.  Realising that I really did not prepare well for my exam. Feeling so so so regret and hope to start everything all over again. I wish I could. In these past few weeks, I realised that I have been mixing so well with my college friends.  I am so glad to know them in my tertiary education life :)  Slowly loving back this college after overcame with hardships. I've been struggling for the past few months, figuring what is wrong in me. I couldn't get an answer. So I rather stop over thinking and mix well with my college friends. Things turned out to be better than what I'd imagined. It wasn't that bad at all. (: Cherished every moments I spent with my college mates.  Taking pictures, hanging out, watching movies...

I didn't know since when, I feel so unsecured and unprepared. Exams are around the corner, and I tried staying up late to study. Somehow, I don't feel knowledgeable, my brain is blank! I've been searching for universities recently. Since the ucas application deadline is near, I decided to give up applying to UK. One of the main reason was, uk's tuition fees are expensive. I didn't want my parents to spend so much money on me, because I feel very guilty. I don't know why. I am considering Taiwan universities because the tuition fees are sooooo cheap until I feel like doing medicine over there. I've been imagining how will my daily routine be if I study in Taiwan. Last week Monday, my mum accompanied me to the Taiwan universities displacement centre to look for further information. After listening to what that person said, I was a bit anxious and worried because the subjects taught in Taiwan are in traditional Chinese :( It will be tough for me since I have...