Depression

I cried today. Wasn't because of how I screwed up for my physics paper, it was because of some inner depression. 

I can't stop pushing myself against the wall, pressing hard and giving myself more and more pressure. I couldn't do well in everything because I don't have any capabilities.

I should be studying now. But I am blogging instead, because I realised that I should take a short break from studying and do something I that can make me feel much much better.

Just now, I was having dinner with my mom. We were talking something serious, then the situation went worse. I couldn't resist myself and I can't hold my tears.

My voice started to tremble while talking to my mom. Too much of depressions until I had to explode everything out at one shot. I wasn't in a very good mood today, even in college. 

I was walking from college to kl sentral after college. During the whole journey, I can't stop thinking about the things that I'm worried of. Overthinking, does kills :(

Feeling so much better after crying all the stresses out :')

Should get back to my books now.
Ciao guys. 


All the best for tomorrow's chemistry paper! 


Lots of love,
LsquareEpowerfive 

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